#SundayConfessions 9-10-17 | STOP ABUSING YOURSELF

About 10-12 years ago I had a situation where I had to be real myself when I didn’t want to. I was abusing myself without knowing it. I had an Xbox 360 at the time. I loved it. I was team Xbox all the way. Call of Duty, God of War, Splinter Cell, and NBA2K were my favorite games. I would never think of joining Sony or PlayStation. As a gamer, that’s how it was. At that time you were either team Xbox or team PlayStation.

As I kept playing my Xbox I began to experience glitches in the system. I sent it in for repairs for an A/V issue. I was bored out of my mind for the week or so they had it. Not long after that I got the infamous red ring of death! The system stopped working. I sent it back in for repairs. Again, I waited impatiently until I got my system back. A few weeks after I got the system back I was playing Call of Duty and every time I reached a certain part in the game it would freeze.

II asked some friends if they experienced this and they told me my system was getting ready to out. They advised me to let it go and get something for it before it was too late.

I was telling my brother about it. He was like bro, YOU GOTTA STOP ABUSING YOURSELF. I’m like what? He told me he experienced the same thing with his Xbox and he converted to the PlayStation a few months prior. There hasn’t been any issues with the PlayStation far as glitches went. I did my research and couldn’t find anything. As much as I didn’t want to convert over, I knew I had to. It made sense. Why keep dealing with the same problematic issue over and over again. For what? What as I benefiting? Just because I liked it, didn’t mean it worked for me.

I remember when I called Xbox and they told me I ONLY PAYED $50 FOR INSURANCE and it didn’t cover the repairs. In addition to that, when I received my console back from the previous repair they sent me a different system. I had checked the serial number and it wasn’t the original. $50 is a lot of money regardless. For someone to tell me that made me look at them in disgust.

I finally let the 360 go. I exchanged it for PlayStation 3. It was a better product for me. I was able to play the same games without the worry. On top of that I could play online for free! The ease it put on my mind without having to worry if something was going to put on me. Now the question is, why did I wait so long? Why was I so hesitant?

Maybe I was afraid of change. Maybe I knew something was better around the corner but was slow to move. New things bring on near fears. The fear of the unknown keeps us all back. I said all of this to say, don’t be afraid to let something that has been holding you back go. As much as you want to hold on to it, it’s best you let it go if it’s putting too much stress on you. Holding on to a bad situation is only self abuse. Yes it’s easier said than done to let something you hold dear to for so long go just like that. It is something that needs to be done.

Regardless if it’s bad eating habits, a workout regiments that you’re so use to that you don’t want to let go, you just gotta let it go. Stop abusing yourself. Start new. Begin a new journey. You will never know how good things can go if you never place one foot in front of the other and move forward with your life.